im happy.

happily in love, with you.

dun ask.

wad's with BAN MIAN?

recently, i've been having loads of BAN MIAN minus the mian. "aunty, one ban mian, lesser mian, more bak, add one more egg ah"............. u get the picture. so, where can we find nice BAN MIAN? anyone? let's see, toa payoh kopitiam's is pretty good cos the aunty said i look young with nice complexion. HEE.

may all you pple enjoy THE BAN MIAN.

i'm officially over-stressed.

it's been awhile since i had menstrual cramps. oh wait, ultra serious menstrual cramps, so much so i cried to mummy. yes yes, very kiddy, i know. close frds who know me would know i have womb problems, so shut the hell up, u judgmental ass hole. i remembered being in pain whilst SITTING, whilst LYING DOWN, whilst SLEEPING. if only man had menstrual probs for just 5 mins. let's see how'd tat turn out.

i'm sad. i'm very sad. where's daddy when i need him most? i've not had a dad for the longest time. i want to be supportive of him in China but i'm losing hope each day. i dunno wad to do. i cry myself to sleep almost every night. y do pple around me keep thinking im loaded? just cos i drive around dosent mean im loaded. it's not MY car anyway.

pple borrowing money frm me, not few dollars, few hundreds. school assignments, work. i cant take it anymore. i have no one, not even richard to support me in an emotional way. mum dosent give allowance, no work=no textbooks, no new clothes like every other uni student, no necessities. just imagine having NO rest day in a WHOLE MONTH? that's right. for the month of august, if im not schooling on that day, means i'll be at Chanel working. Roster just came out, literally no rest day. 4 tests due in august, where do i find time to study? to work at Chanel i cant work too little days in a month. so why not change to a lower paying job with more flexible hours? i would if i had allowance for travel, food, toiletries and all these.

i hate my life. the only person whom i thought would stand by me dosent really seem to do it anyway. let's face it. im exhausted.

sometimes i just want to come home and sleep without having to on this fucking lappie and type some school assignment out and crack my brain after a long day's work. i cant. i have to force myself to sit on the study table, open my book and READ. and then when im finally done with all these reponsibilities and want to have a cup of ice cold milo-ping, richard says NO U CANT GO OUT.

i dunno wad to do anymore. i want a rest. i just want to let it all out. im exhausted.

help me.

school started, BOO.

So anyways, on the bright side, i've got all my darlings intact!!! everything's good, new car coming on monday, i chose BLUE. how pretty, if only they had it coming in pink. Sch's so fun, love my new frds, yes yes, i still love you darlings, cept DEBBIE whose leaving this sunday, i hate you most.

Congrats to my darling dearest on passing ur TP on the FIRST TRY! am so proud of u. have fun with ur Bmw, lets go ramp ur "best" frd down when we have the time. oh wait... he's not worth it.

rich bird is still the best, singing songs everyday, being so smelly. pls wash ur backside when you have the time.

high heels + whole night of dancing and you get a debby with no feet now. thanks to myself and a stupid desire to look TAI TAI-ish, i wore heels to st. james and partied till 4am. am now officially suffering from hurt feet.


so much's been happening, wad's new? SCHOOL IS STARTING THIS MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY OH MY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! boyfriend is not very supportive though. oh darling. boyfriend is very angry about wad happened to his Christmas gift. HEE.

here's wishing all university students a GOOD FRESH START TO SCHOOL AGAIN!

cheers.

I HATE YOU, YONG RICHARD. u pung sai with green peas.

it's Mothers' Day.

Happy Mums' Day to all mamas, and of cos, Happiest Mums' Day to my hot mama. Though I cant afford the world for my mama, kor and i bought her dinner at ding tai feng. fabulous xiao long baos.

thinking back on the last few months, i feel like a fool, being played with in a so called "relationship" sucks. foregoing the best boyfriend in the world for a money sucking loser is the stupidest thing i did. yes, gary. he can fuck off to not-so-hot mama land.

and so i thank God, chard is still by my side after all these. i cant help but remind you how much i appreciate and love you. you make me see what love really is, forgiving me time and time again, making me happy- just by being you.

once in a purple moon, i get up late for work. then came the stupid rain plus the ridiculous traffic jam and you get........................... me wasting 20 dollars on cab fare.

once in a pink moon, frds come lunch with me. andy whom offered a cucumber as a bday gift. thanks dude. and bestie to accompany me for jap food. lunchin wif andy tmr again, maybe he might give me a carrot this time eh?

once in a lifetime, i get a REPLY FROM SIM OFFERING ME THE COURSE I WANT WITH MAXIMUM EXEMPTION FOR ALLLLLL YR 1 MODULES. had to type that in caps. it's freaking $5000+ for 6 short months and i gotta reply by 12th may. PLS PLS PLS let NTU/NUS send me an acceptance letter b4 that.

drea's bday party was great. pls thank for me putting up the balloons and eating alot. HEE.

can i brag bout the stuff i bought now? Heeeeeeeeee.

bought 2 tops and a cardigen frm Warehouse, so many lingerie for la senza, as if the ones i bought with drea wasnt enough, i bought 2 more bras today. ok i swear by la senza's comfort level, oh wait, and PUSH UP level. ooooooooooooh. got shorts frm m)phosis in SMALL size and realise my tighs look too fat in them. see wad happens when i try too hard? wad else, OH, if ur lookin for sheet masks, try The Face Shop's. oh my, totally fabulous i tell you, especially the mung beans one. goodie.

you know when frds tell me, "you work at Chanel but u'll prolly give me 75% of ur pay buying their stuff"- totally true. love the liner, the lipstick, eye shadow palette and foundation. BOUGHT THEM ALL!!!! bestie knows wad's up with the crazy lip stick rush now. bought paul and joe, YSL, Za, bourjois, M.A.C . Sally Hensen and Chanel lippies. they're so pretty! so many new girls coming next month. goodness. time to ROAR for commision. Chanel's been nice. received the latest Chance fragrance cos of my performance. HEY it's retailing at 89 per bottle OK?

just talking bout cosmetics makes me wanna SHOP. that reminds me, gary and i were so desperate to shop, we shopped at MUSTAFA few nights back . totally retarded. and we're planning a shopping trip this thurs to m'sia. any one else? HEE.

thanks chard for dinner tonight and my loose powder too. u kena conned. HEHEHE. ur still my favourite boy.

on the down side, it's difficult when ur fickle minded. yes, you.

what are friends for?

to celebrate birthdays with you! that's exactly what darlings did for me. thanks for the pressies, I've never had so much euphoria in my life and er.. I LOVE THE FOSSIL. ok la i love you darlings more. dinner at Out of The Pan and a cute lil cheese cake. thanks for making my day, really. am lookin forward to andrea's!

family gathering at kong's, pretty generous servings of............ ang baos. and HENCE i bought my birks, shorts frm m)phosis, shoes frm Charles & Keith, skirt frm Future State.. make up frm YSL... ahhhhhh you get the picture.

let's get to the family. mum bought me dinner at cafe cartel today. how sweet. godma gave the best gift- a COACH signature bag. diane got me 2 brazillians frm Topshop and manda+alison got me a soft toy bearing the 21 number with it. love u'all.

so what did Justin, Gary, Richard give? that's the question isn't it? all 3 gave nothing.

pretty simple, sweet and memorable 21st. thanks for being part of it. (cept the last 3 names of cos.)

heard of the oldy, "Once in a Lifetime" by Enigma? if not, you should. it's specially for you, that one person who walked me through tertiary education, the one person who was there for me when i was fat, when i was at my lowest, when i was unreasonable, when i was someone no one else could bare. the one person who followed me to work all the way at marsiling when we still din have a car and pampered me most. we may not be together anymore, you may not want me as your girl anymore, but i'm glad as you were mine- once in my life time. not one day has passed without having you in my thoughts, Chard. sometimes i just need you by my side, when i realise that i'll never would, it hurts me, but then again u've been mine- once in a life time. i've been most blessed through the 3 yrs of your companionship.

Tua Ee is here from aussie! family will be having a cute little bday dinner at kong's on 13th. would be fun.

Justin has been such a sweetie, coming over to Chanel with brownies, donuts, desserts and what nots. Thanks handsome, u've been really kind whilst your best friend has been annoying. i really appreciate ur tiny gestures, perk my days up. promise i'll buy you lunch soon alright?

bestie's bday was cute. she din get any pressies from us all. HAHAHA! pls forgive us, we're getting you a really nice gift that i myself want more than i want the euphoria liao la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! erm darlings, this is a huge HINT. thanks ah. Rong is off to aussie, i hate her for that. Drea? sweetie sweet with the boyfriend whom i hate cos he takes her away from us. HAHA!!!

Gary bought me ANOTHER Me to You bear. awwwwwwwwwww................................ hmph.