deborah.

2007-10-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

im happy.

happily in love, with you.

dun ask.

2007-08-13T01:05:00.000+08:00

wad's with BAN MIAN?

recently, i've been having loads of BAN MIAN minus the mian. "aunty, one ban mian, lesser mian, more bak, add one more egg ah"............. u get the picture. so, where can we find nice BAN MIAN? anyone? let's see, toa payoh kopitiam's is pretty good cos the aunty said i look young with nice complexion. HEE.

may all you pple enjoy THE BAN MIAN.

2007-07-29T22:48:00.002+08:00

i'm officially over-stressed.

it's been awhile since i had menstrual cramps. oh wait, ultra serious menstrual cramps, so much so i cried to mummy. yes yes, very kiddy, i know. close frds who know me would know i have womb problems, so shut the hell up, u judgmental ass hole. i remembered being in pain whilst SITTING, whilst LYING DOWN, whilst SLEEPING. if only man had menstrual probs for just 5 mins. let's see how'd tat turn out.

i'm sad. i'm very sad. where's daddy when i need him most? i've not had a dad for the longest time. i want to be supportive of him in China but i'm losing hope each day. i dunno wad to do. i cry myself to sleep almost every night. y do pple around me keep thinking im loaded? just cos i drive around dosent mean im loaded. it's not MY car anyway.

pple borrowing money frm me, not few dollars, few hundreds. school assignments, work. i cant take it anymore. i have no one, not even richard to support me in an emotional way. mum dosent give allowance, no work=no textbooks, no new clothes like every other uni student, no necessities. just imagine having NO rest day in a WHOLE MONTH? that's right. for the month of august, if im not schooling on that day, means i'll be at Chanel working. Roster just came out, literally no rest day. 4 tests due in august, where do i find time to study? to work at Chanel i cant work too little days in a month. so why not change to a lower paying job with more flexible hours? i would if i had allowance for travel, food, toiletries and all these.

i hate my life. the only person whom i thought would stand by me dosent really seem to do it anyway. let's face it. im exhausted.

sometimes i just want to come home and sleep without having to on this fucking lappie and type some school assignment out and crack my brain after a long day's work. i cant. i have to force myself to sit on the study table, open my book and READ. and then when im finally done with all these reponsibilities and want to have a cup of ice cold milo-ping, richard says NO U CANT GO OUT.

i dunno wad to do anymore. i want a rest. i just want to let it all out. im exhausted.

help me.

2007-07-05T22:08:00.000+08:00

school started, BOO.

So anyways, on the bright side, i've got all my darlings intact!!! everything's good, new car coming on monday, i chose BLUE. how pretty, if only they had it coming in pink. Sch's so fun, love my new frds, yes yes, i still love you darlings, cept DEBBIE whose leaving this sunday, i hate you most.

Congrats to my darling dearest on passing ur TP on the FIRST TRY! am so proud of u. have fun with ur Bmw, lets go ramp ur "best" frd down when we have the time. oh wait... he's not worth it.

rich bird is still the best, singing songs everyday, being so smelly. pls wash ur backside when you have the time.

2007-06-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

high heels + whole night of dancing and you get a debby with no feet now. thanks to myself and a stupid desire to look TAI TAI-ish, i wore heels to st. james and partied till 4am. am now officially suffering from hurt feet.

so much's been happening, wad's new? SCHOOL IS STARTING THIS MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY OH MY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! boyfriend is not very supportive though. oh darling. boyfriend is very angry about wad happened to his Christmas gift. HEE.

here's wishing all university students a GOOD FRESH START TO SCHOOL AGAIN!

cheers.

2007-06-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU, YONG RICHARD. u pung sai with green peas.

2007-05-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

it's Mothers' Day.

Happy Mums' Day to all mamas, and of cos, Happiest Mums' Day to my hot mama. Though I cant afford the world for my mama, kor and i bought her dinner at ding tai feng. fabulous xiao long baos.

thinking back on the last few months, i feel like a fool, being played with in a so called "relationship" sucks. foregoing the best boyfriend in the world for a money sucking loser is the stupidest thing i did. yes, gary. he can fuck off to not-so-hot mama land.

and so i thank God, chard is still by my side after all these. i cant help but remind you how much i appreciate and love you. you make me see what love really is, forgiving me time and time again, making me happy- just by being you.

2007-04-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

once in a purple moon, i get up late for work. then came the stupid rain plus the ridiculous traffic jam and you get........................... me wasting 20 dollars on cab fare.

once in a pink moon, frds come lunch with me. andy whom offered a cucumber as a bday gift. thanks dude. and bestie to accompany me for jap food. lunchin wif andy tmr again, maybe he might give me a carrot this time eh?

once in a lifetime, i get a REPLY FROM SIM OFFERING ME THE COURSE I WANT WITH MAXIMUM EXEMPTION FOR ALLLLLL YR 1 MODULES. had to type that in caps. it's freaking $5000+ for 6 short months and i gotta reply by 12th may. PLS PLS PLS let NTU/NUS send me an acceptance letter b4 that.

drea's bday party was great. pls thank for me putting up the balloons and eating alot. HEE.

can i brag bout the stuff i bought now? Heeeeeeeeee.

bought 2 tops and a cardigen frm Warehouse, so many lingerie for la senza, as if the ones i bought with drea wasnt enough, i bought 2 more bras today. ok i swear by la senza's comfort level, oh wait, and PUSH UP level. ooooooooooooh. got shorts frm m)phosis in SMALL size and realise my tighs look too fat in them. see wad happens when i try too hard? wad else, OH, if ur lookin for sheet masks, try The Face Shop's. oh my, totally fabulous i tell you, especially the mung beans one. goodie.

you know when frds tell me, "you work at Chanel but u'll prolly give me 75% of ur pay buying their stuff"- totally true. love the liner, the lipstick, eye shadow palette and foundation. BOUGHT THEM ALL!!!! bestie knows wad's up with the crazy lip stick rush now. bought paul and joe, YSL, Za, bourjois, M.A.C . Sally Hensen and Chanel lippies. they're so pretty! so many new girls coming next month. goodness. time to ROAR for commision. Chanel's been nice. received the latest Chance fragrance cos of my performance. HEY it's retailing at 89 per bottle OK?

just talking bout cosmetics makes me wanna SHOP. that reminds me, gary and i were so desperate to shop, we shopped at MUSTAFA few nights back . totally retarded. and we're planning a shopping trip this thurs to m'sia. any one else? HEE.

thanks chard for dinner tonight and my loose powder too. u kena conned. HEHEHE. ur still my favourite boy.

on the down side, it's difficult when ur fickle minded. yes, you.

2007-04-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

what are friends for?

to celebrate birthdays with you! that's exactly what darlings did for me. thanks for the pressies, I've never had so much euphoria in my life and er.. I LOVE THE FOSSIL. ok la i love you darlings more. dinner at Out of The Pan and a cute lil cheese cake. thanks for making my day, really. am lookin forward to andrea's!

family gathering at kong's, pretty generous servings of............ ang baos. and HENCE i bought my birks, shorts frm m)phosis, shoes frm Charles & Keith, skirt frm Future State.. make up frm YSL... ahhhhhh you get the picture.

let's get to the family. mum bought me dinner at cafe cartel today. how sweet. godma gave the best gift- a COACH signature bag. diane got me 2 brazillians frm Topshop and manda+alison got me a soft toy bearing the 21 number with it. love u'all.

so what did Justin, Gary, Richard give? that's the question isn't it? all 3 gave nothing.

pretty simple, sweet and memorable 21st. thanks for being part of it. (cept the last 3 names of cos.)

2007-04-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

heard of the oldy, "Once in a Lifetime" by Enigma? if not, you should. it's specially for you, that one person who walked me through tertiary education, the one person who was there for me when i was fat, when i was at my lowest, when i was unreasonable, when i was someone no one else could bare. the one person who followed me to work all the way at marsiling when we still din have a car and pampered me most. we may not be together anymore, you may not want me as your girl anymore, but i'm glad as you were mine- once in my life time. not one day has passed without having you in my thoughts, Chard. sometimes i just need you by my side, when i realise that i'll never would, it hurts me, but then again u've been mine- once in a life time. i've been most blessed through the 3 yrs of your companionship.

Tua Ee is here from aussie! family will be having a cute little bday dinner at kong's on 13th. would be fun.

Justin has been such a sweetie, coming over to Chanel with brownies, donuts, desserts and what nots. Thanks handsome, u've been really kind whilst your best friend has been annoying. i really appreciate ur tiny gestures, perk my days up. promise i'll buy you lunch soon alright?

bestie's bday was cute. she din get any pressies from us all. HAHAHA! pls forgive us, we're getting you a really nice gift that i myself want more than i want the euphoria liao la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! erm darlings, this is a huge HINT. thanks ah. Rong is off to aussie, i hate her for that. Drea? sweetie sweet with the boyfriend whom i hate cos he takes her away from us. HAHA!!!

Gary bought me ANOTHER Me to You bear. awwwwwwwwwww................................ hmph.

2007-04-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

how does it feel like to be literally broke? well, it feels like.............. you know.........................................................fuck.

2 of my greatest friends' birthdays plus a constant yearn to shop plus my own stupid 21st coming up.

maybe i won't celebrate. what's the point when i cant enjoy myself knowing i'll be so broke, just for the moment?

2007-03-29T00:59:00.000+08:00

let's introduce the cast of Sha La La and Co.

Sha la la- Gary
Oh la la- Justin

Justin brought me to Crystal Mirror for dinner- fine dinning with a touch of entertainment and food in pretentious amounts and a whopping $350 per person for a 3 course meal. thanks handsome, it's been awhile. it's sad to know u wear blazers to Turf City every other day. hurhur.

On the contary, Gary has been a stupid shit head.

head's spinning, feet hurting cos of the fucked up working shoes. i haven't felt my toes for a long time. working OT tmr which is crap. meeting my girls on sat and lan has volunteered to get my invitation cards done for the birthday party. pls leave ur addresses if you haven't already sms-ed me.

i need to break free. wooooooooosh!

2007-03-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

finally met up with my 3 greatest frds.

and so, we had an important discussion. what should Yours Truly do for the long awaited 21st? we've settle for cafe del'mar at siloso beach. after brain storming, i still have say 30 people to invite. now, that's retarded cos it'd be fucking expensive and mum is only willing to pay.. like what, 200? MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we'll see.

work at Chanel is pretty......................................... tiring on the feet especially with the new shoes.

boo.

2007-03-21T01:40:00.000+08:00

i love my grades. sounds thick skinned, dosen't it? i fucking dun give a damn if you think so though. *grins*
One Distinction, As and B+ for the rest. i remembered when i was a cheerleader in sec sch and a line went, "... all of you may hate us but we don't like you either".. same goes here.

then again, all the re-submition of the latest transcript to all the universities is gonna happen. fucking hate all the lil stupid details like these. SIM is confusing with similar degrees but different titles. nvm, i'm gonna settle ALL the uni stuff this fri with sha la la who'd be my driver. RIGHT, SHA LA LA? be good.

bestie promised to get me CLINIQUE's eye cream! i love you la really. seriously need a trustable eye cream since i hafen actually got an off day since like, last mon. i love godma more than you though cos she's gettin a Coach Signature Bag for my 21st. HAHAHA!

im bored, surprise me.

2007-03-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

when work sets in, everything else sets out.

it's been a million years since i've sat down to chill with my 3 greatest frds (andrea, rong and debbie), and another million years since i practiced retail theraphy and i'll die if i dun do it soon.

Chanel treats me pretty well with the exception of some cheena people once in awhile. the launch of our latest Chanel Chance Eau Fresh fragrance is coming out on 23rd march! do come to sample it and check out our new retarded uniform (llime GREEN top with a white RIBBON and the Chanel logo on 2 arms, WHITE pants and shoes from Charles & Keith) to have a great laugh.

zouk-ed with nat, jess, rong and co. on wed. phuture sucks to the deepest core, so packed, i prolly just rubbed my fats away in the crowd. mambo sucks, hate the music, velvet......... i dun need to elaborate, do i?

sha la la's been a busy boy. dunno busy with what. but we had dim sum this evening at geylang when he picked me up from work. he was damn cute but he likes to talk about ohh la la, which is super turn off since ohh la la is also damn nice. and it's funny to mix them both.

work as usual tmr.... cheers.

2007-03-05T04:02:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile.

let's talk 'bout the papers- managable though CRMP was kinda stupid. like d..d...d..u..du..DUH cos the lecturer is mr wilson chay so u can imagine how he phrased his questions. to hell with late night studying and grounding myself at home. graduation's in june. maybe we'd get to wear the nice graduation "dress" and "hat" thing which we see on tv.. u know.. usually comes in dark blue? HA.

SUPPOSED to head mos with jiafeng, samantha and co. on thurs but to hell with the idea cos sha lala had better plans. NVM. we're going to zouk this wed, aren't we? supposed to go zouk with natalie and co./yiting and co. on thurs but to hell with the idea again cos i myself had other plans. NVM. our hols are till july. so wtf, many opportunities. supposed to head seletar on sat with ben and fellow idiots, but to hell once again cos i spent time with darlings. rong is damn sexy now i tell u, she's so TANNED. and debbie sucks at gamblin. pls dun do it for a living k?

supposed to meet andrew, but i couldnt make it. im really sorry..........................

suppered with sha la la, mahjong-ed with bestie and frds, went to alvin's to bai nian and got insulted by his sis cos she said my feet are really tiny, shopped, spent time at kong's, went out with chard. so far that's wad i did. and yes, i'll be getting a job soon.

have been driving alot lately. lan thinks i drive like a crazy woman. RIGHT LAN? rmb the time i beat ya up cos u said u still wana live through army while i was givin ya a lift home? yeah. rmb that ok? cos the next time u say Armeer can drive better, i'll beat u up again. am meeting buddy tmr for dinner so u better say right things ah?

that reminds me. sha la la was so nice to come pick me just now. AND THEN, he broke his keys, i dunnoe HOW the hell, must be too muscular or dunno WAD, so we took a CAB for supper. laughed all the way like fools la.

am makin plans to visit the salvation army with chard this sat to give away my many bags of unwanted clothes.

recently, sha la la's best frd, ooh la la, has been really nice and gentlemenly, bringing me for fancy dinners and what not. very nice chap. BUT, we'll see what happens. hmm... u owe me 1000 pieces of crap shit.

if ur kind enough, ple donate some fund to Deborah's Charity so she can get a new hp. dun worry, i'll get a hp lousier than yours. hee.

cheers, guys!

2007-02-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

someone made this colarge for me on a huge laminated poster which i think is totally nice. thanks dear. blog more after exams.

2007-02-21T21:25:00.000+08:00

study week. hooray? maybe not. but it's the last lap, so.. HOORAY!

BPO, HB and CRMP papers on mon, wed, thus respectively. cant wait till it all ends so i can go get my clock with sha la la. he has PROMISED to get my clock frm Molecule (just like how he promised a nice hand made v-day gift which till today, i've not received- you get the idea).

reunion was great, kong made his own luo hey which was damn cute. niece- bella wore a pink cheong sum thing which was cuter than cute. 8 red packets this yr amounted to a miserable $172.

ANDREW LEE has been a great source of distraction. yes ANDREW LEE CHEOW SOMETHING. thanks for all the happy calls though. let's date after the papers else i'll blog bout u and ur......... *toot*. cheers. and i will, i tell u.

lunch at ikea, ice cream at haagen dazs, a lil shoppin at queensway. that was all you had to do to perk me up... really.

2007-02-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

thanks for the many views on "VIEW MY COMPLETE PROFILE". Unfortunately, there's just my name in there and it's gonna be that way. Text me if u need.

thanks also for all the pretty lil v.day gifts! though i din get anything from bestie YET *ahem*. appreciate the hand made ones especially from pple like lancaster, andrew and sky. double thanks to you guys! most disappointing of all, sha la la gave me one stalk of rose. last min rose.

had paranakan food at esplanade, river boat ride, ice cream at clarke quey. passable.

mum has been scolding me for nothing cos of her word load. feels like fuck.

packed the wardroke like finally and i've got more than 10 plastic bags of unwanted clothes. anyone? rong, pls clear for me thanks. HA.

ive gone against my own principles for you, i couldnt understand why i did so, once in awhile i feel a sense of regret which i cant comprehend cos it feels so right yet so wrong. would u cherish me? is this just a getaway for us or is it for real? im lost, i dun like feeling this way, never have i been someone who feels like tat in a r/s or give in, in such a short period of time. u asked me to be ur girl, i said no, would u still treat me the way u do?

2007-02-13T22:04:00.001+08:00

Dearest Lancaster Lee Backside,

Thanks for your retarded gift and selecting all my ugly photos for it. HAHA kiddin.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EInpymXVkG0

2007-02-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

new start, new blog! alright, i'll add all the "pretty prettys" soon. after exams. hee.

stayed over at sha la la's place the last 2 nights. was a good "getaway" cos sha la la's super retarded. debbie would know. we had sakae with the bestie. bought my own bestie some stuff for v-day. HINT LA OK? drew popped by, 'gave' me tarts. thanks, handsome.

nope, not going on any dates this yr for the over rated v-day? am wondering wad u guys may be doin eh?

had a double date wif bestie and charles, sha la la was super late then went wrong way some more kena stuck in jam. HAHA. nvm, charles fail my test, sorry deb i disapprove la.

just came back from dinner with darlings + benedict. kns, had the most expensive tuna salad at coffee club. like pung sai too. supposed to have nydc wif sha la la but that fella fell sick. speedy recovery pls.

did the uni applications.

2 more days of sch and it's study week, cant wait till it's all over.